This site is so old, I'll be suprised if anyone still uses it . . .
My main purpose for being on here is for myself, to note down journal entries but, if you'd like to talk to me leave me a comment. :]
10/30
Party tonight, pretty excited. I know my dumbass will get pretty messed up off some booze that will of course be there. . . Last time I got "drunk" I fell into a bush and cracked my head on the side of the curb. Not the greatest feeling in the world the next day. . . That should of taught me a lesson, don't you think? Nope, not for this alcoholic.
Tomorrow's halloween, that'll probably be another day I will be getting drunk if I make it through todays wild night, haha. I've been noticing I continue to put myself in the most wrong positions. I just got out of jail only 2 weeks ago and I'm already breaking the rules . . Also, I put myself in the worst spots with my most recent men. I don't know why I do it really, when I feel something wrong is going to happen.
It's kinda sad, really, how I used to be so . . I guess you can call it "Godly" . I was very high-spirited, very faithful and all of a sudden I felt I broke my trust between Him and I. So now, I'm not going to ask for forgiveness until I know I'm ready to change, obviously won't be today or tomorrow. . . Not very good of me, huh? At least now I'm being honest with Him?
If it wasn't for overprotected computers here at school I wouldn't even be writting this entry. . . I can't even get on myspace, nothing, on these damn computers. Maybe xanga will be a bigger help ? We'll have to see but for now I'm off to next period. If you really just read this entry, you must have no life because mine is really boring, especially to read. . . Talk to me if you'd like cause I'd like that. :]
